life changes

its been too long i havent writing about a thing here ;P banyak bgt kejadian'' yg uda terjadi diakhir taon 2007 dan awal 2008 ini ampe gw ga sempet nulis blog!!
bingung gw mau crita darimana, mgkn crita the bad side dulu kali yah.. lets start then, shall we?? critana bermula dr tgl 17 dec kmaren, after i finish my medical treatement for 1 month di Damansara Fertility Centre (not that i wanna have a child) for my period and internal pain so i decided to go home with a blown-off filled stomach!! yup perut gw rasanya mau meledak abis gw selesaiin procedure treatement gw but for the sake of all i had to go back to jakarta tho..
Nah ampe dijakarta, mak gw nanya donk "tu perut knapa?? isi??" isi anak kuda kali yah maksudnya? hehehe after a huge argument with my mom, she send me to PARAMITHA clinic to have my very first USG hehehe maybe my mom still curious that she'll be having a grandchild soon ;P halah pokoknya after the check up she finds out that there something bad happen inside my stomach, which is not a baby in it!! its 8cm and 6cm tumors in both of my ovarium.. hmm its a BIG shock for my mom and I but we manage to get ourself a gynaecolog in the nearby home hospital that confirm us about the tumor..
for some times it looks like it is the end of my world but i manage to collect my self from pieces and i told my self "what are you goin to do??" i felt like it is my time to put things right and now im trying to fix everything one by one.. i try to suspend my study by myself, i try tocare more about what im eating, i try to get close with my family more, and the best thing is i try to think about my future more!!
before i feel like my life drives me slow and i always go with the flow kinda of person but now i can see how limited and how rushing is time for me, i try to set my life wisely and i just hope i can do everything that i've been planned for this last 1 month..